Viruses Going, ATOS Anxiety Rising

The laryngitis seems to be subsiding hopefully I'll get my hearing back and get rid of the effects of these darn viruses. 

Jasper had a huge lump on his head that looked like a boil or something similar and then it popped in a mass of blood. He seems fine and after it was cleaned up it has been healing well.

I hate the ATOS assessment forms. They know what's wrong with me but seem to need to know again every so often. I'm doing everything I can to get myself back to health and back to work but it will take time. I'm supposed to be getting help from Ingeus too yet they are always messing me about. Switching me from person to person without any real reason and without providing any actual help. It seems pointless.



26/02/2013

Depression Questionnaire (PHQ9):
Your Depression Score is 27/27

Anxiety Questionnaire (GAD7):
Your Anxiety Score is 21/21

Laryngitis

The tonsillitis has gone and been replaced with laryngitis. Darn illnesses won't leave me alone at the minute. Hopefully I'll soon be well enough to go and get my dental work done that's had to be put off since last year. 
Hopefully my sister is having fun on holiday in Spain and hasn't taken any illness with her.



19/02/2013

Depression Questionnaire (PHQ9):
Your Depression Score is 27/27

Anxiety Questionnaire (GAD7):
Your Anxiety Score is 21/21

Tonsillitis

Had a blood test yesterday and I'm now increasingly getting more ill. 
Tonsillitis isn't very nice and the cough is ridiculously painful. 
Hopefully it'll pass soon.



12/02/2013

Depression Questionnaire (PHQ9):
Your Depression Score is 27/27

Anxiety Questionnaire (GAD7):
Your Anxiety Score is 21/21

Sylvester Amongst The Owls

05/02/2013

Depression Questionnaire (PHQ9):
Your Depression Score is 21/27

Anxiety Questionnaire (GAD7):
Your Anxiety Score is 21/21

Delta Machine

It seems such a long time since I have been able to look to the future and see something worth living for yet for the first time in months I actually have something to look forward to. 

Depeche Mode have a new album "Delta Machine" out this year and I can't wait to hear it. Their music is one of the few things I have found to be able to calm and distract me when I'm really down and agitated. It's an escape that let's me forget the my life and immerse myself in a world of electronic masterpieces.

My life may stay the stressful, anxiety ridden, manic depressive mess it is now but at least there will soon be a new soundtrack in which I can escape to "Heaven" before calling in the "Delta Machine".

29/01/2013

Depression Questionnaire (PHQ9):
Your Depression Score is 22/27

Anxiety Questionnaire (GAD7):
Your Anxiety Score is 21/21

Drained

The past few days have been a real pain in the ass. I have spent a huge amount of time barely able to keep myself awake. I have been completely drained. I haven't even been able to keep my eyes open at times as they hurt too much and my eyeballs have been red. At times i haven't had the energy to move and I lost my appetite. I haven't felt this agitated, angry and down for more than 3 years and I'm not sure what the cause is. 

I can't stand my unpredictable flicking between moods at the best of times but the past week has been ridiculous. In the past week I've had more mood changes than I've had meals and the bad moods have been overly violent and aggressive. 

I just hope that i can get some sort of normality back to my life and less mood changes over the coming week or so.




26/01/2013

Depression Questionnaire (PHQ9):
Your Depression Score is 27/27

Anxiety Questionnaire (GAD7):
Your Anxiety Score is 21/21

2013: Year of Incompetence?

So far 2013 is proving to be a year of incompetence. First there was the HMV staff in Birkenhead, next is Parcelforce.

Placing an order online and finding it's getting delivered by Parcelforce should be reassuring yet for me it isn't anymore. I was out at 2pm on 16th of January so was unable to accept a delivery  Normally if this happens I expect to return home to a card telling me that a delivery was attempted and that I can get it redelivered or pick it up from somewhere. Nope. I returned home to find nothing. 

The next day I again received no parcel so I decided to check with the Stateside Candy Co. who I had placed the order with. My parcel had been sent by Parcelforce's 48 hour express delivery so I should have received it on the 16th whilst I was out. Had I not checked I wouldn't have been aware that there had been a missed delivery as the driver didn't post a card through the door as he was supposed to do. A week on and I am forced to have to pick up my parcel from the central post office (despite being told it was in my local post office which is literally 5 minutes away). Contacting Parcelforce doesn't get you any help. They just fob you off with gibberish and they don't care that you haven't been properly informed about the parcel or given a card that you need to take in order to collect it. Instead I have to hope they will accept a utility bill  as proof that the parcel is mine. This farce is stress and agitation that I do not need and could have been avoided had Parcelforce done their job properly. A week on I can only hope that I am able to retrieve my parcel.

I was supposed to attend another session at Ingeus today but I cancelled it due to the bad weather. It's a stress off me for now but I know I'm just delaying it.



22/01/2013

Depression Questionnaire (PHQ9):
Your Depression Score is 27/27

Anxiety Questionnaire (GAD7):
Your Anxiety Score is 21/21